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Tipping Point

I fight and fight it to the very end.

I can be as stubborn as you, if not more, especially if I’m scared I’m gonna lose my heart again and be back to square 1…especially if it’s just going to be one day, and I’ll have to watch you leave again.

But then I realize I’m not going convince you otherwise not to show up on my front door (in less than a week!). That’s when a sliver of happiness shot straight through the wall I’ve tried desperately to build around me this past year.

And that feeling? Damned if it doesn’t just keep on growing.

Iron and Rust - Pinto

I want it, bad.

May 1st, 2008 | 2 Comments | Posted in HEALTH + (IN)SANITY, LIFE'S ABSURDITIES

Alright, so I can be easygoing and all laid-back, sure. But when I want something (with certain exceptions), I chase after it with focused intensity (of course, smoothed over by some friendly charm and all) to ensure that I get it. I want to teach yoga at my university’s gym, McComas, and now my competitive nature is all fired up over it.

The irony of it all is that one of the first things I say when I start a class is: “Remember to let go of any judgment, expectation, and competition we may feel.”

HA!

Psh, forget that! I want a spot and I want it bad. My audition is on Monday afternoon…apparently there are 10 other people auditioning as well. I’m not sure how many spots are open, maybe 4? 5? Definitely not 10, that’s for sure.

…at least I have some killer references to back me up. *breathes*

Little White Lies

April 13th, 2008 | 10 Comments | Posted in LESSONS LEARNED, LIFE'S ABSURDITIES

I highly recommend Sony VAIOs. Not one has ever failed in my possession. Instead, I failed them.

That’s right, I’ve managed to destroy my 2nd VAIO notebook, this time in less than a year. Needless to say, at probably the busiest time of the semester, I am royally fucked.

It all started as I was walking out of my Judicial office hours and felt water dripping down the side of my right leg. I dumped everything out on the stairwell nearby, trying not to have a panic attack when I saw a sloshing puddle greet me at the very bottom of my bag. As I pulled my laptop out, water from my bottle was literally dripping raining from it. Sad story short, my laptop did eventually turn back on with some blotchy edges around the screen. Other than that, the screen was in surprisingly good condition…plus, everything else worked fine.

Until…well, until I realized that my AC adapter wasn’t actually charging my laptop.

In horrified denial I watched my laptop go from 40% battery life, to 13%, to 5%…(I held out some hope at 2% because, technically, I have my settings so that if it gets that low, it’s supposed to shut down)…but truth stings with a ominous blip that is the sound of my laptop’s last moment. It refused to be resurrected no matter how many times I pressed that damned power ON button.

Right now, I’m just thankful that I am between projects and didn’t lose any major work. Thankful, that the night before I decided to email my 5 page paper earlier than the Tuesday due date (jeez, when does that ever happen? The Inherent Procrastinator in me is thoroughly confused, yet eternally grateful).

…AND uber-thankful that my first VAIO laptop of 4 years, which sustained major injuries last year due to an accidental trip over an ethernet cord, suddenly decided to expand its minimized 2X3 safe mode screen to a normal full-sized one after sitting in my desk drawer for 8 months. I will accept this freak of nature with no questions asked because it means that for the last 2 weeks of the semester, I’ll at least have working internet, email, and the oh-so-cool program that is Wordpad. Yeah, you know you’re jealous about that last one.

The almost eerie coincidence is that my laptop went kaputt! due to the failures of its owner at the exact same time last year, the week right before April 16th. It’s déjà vu that I’ll be without a fully functioning computer again on that day.

The good thing about this is that my 1-year warranty isn’t up until April 19th. The bad is that Sony doesn’t cover water damage…

But hmm…that’s funny, the interesting thing is that I really don’t understand why my laptop suddenly won’t register charging from my AC adapter. Please fix it…?

*fingers crossed* ;)

Facebook’s bitch

This buying and selling of friends is so very sick.

I LOVE it.

And damned if I don’t get all territorial over friends for the nickname rights (uhh, that’s MY Sexybutt thank you very much). I think a relapse into the addiction that is Facebook is creeping back into my life, so help me God Buddha. To be honest, when Facebook first opened up to all these 3rd party applications, I got so freakin’ annoyed by the build-up request of triple-digit magnitude for all sorts of wacky things. Overdosed, I completely shut it out. Preferring to keep things to a minimum (so, you know, people can actually find my Wall in a timely fashion), I only have 2 applications: graffiti and glassbooth.

Oh, wait—

…and Friends for Sale, of course.

I thought it was as stupid as it sounded, why the hell would I want to own my friends and bombard them with the very same application invites I so detest to get more fake money to buy even more friends?!?!?!

But apparently I do. Very much so.

Because deep down inside (right beside the Jane Austen/Disney Romantic), I’m a seriously Competitive Bitch who gets high off of smack talk. Yeah, the part of me that has been conditioned to second nature ever since I was 8 and fell in love double-teaming with my dad in pick-up basketball.

Now you’ll have to excuse me as I unceremoniously end this here for it’s been almost 4 hrs since my last login and I need to get my next $2,000 ka-ching!…you see, I’m saving up to buy one of my favorite male professors (a currently unaffordable $102,650 that got me hooked into this whole terrible time-waster Friends-for-Sale thing in the first place!).

You can Facebook me, here.

In Pursuit of Happiness

1. I’m now certified to teach Yoga Level 1…and soon will be teaching classes.

2. Kath accepted VT’s offer and so now one of my most favorite people will be here for my last year!!

3. I know exactly where I want to be in 1 year…seriously hope UW decides to accept me again (you were my first choice for undergrad, I swear!!!) ;)

Easter Weekend

4. ….oh, and acting silly when you’re supposed to be studying. AND, as if it makes any difference, I’m not the one holding that Easter candy lollipop.